Mata dia?cantik.Hidung dia? comel.Senyum dia?menawan.Suara dia?merdu.Gelagat dia?mengada tapi saya suka.Lenggok dia?malas, tapi menarik.Kata-kata dia?suka cari pasal tapi saya gemar.Hilang akal ke saya?entah.Tak pasti pula.kadang-kala boleh juga.Bagaikan saya di awangan.
Aircond di pasang, radio dimainkan, Ridwan mengungkap perasaan cintanya kepada seseorang.Saya dengar dan tersenyum,mungkin pada dia kami sama.Tapi hakikatnya, jauh berbeza.Sewaktu di majlis siang tadi, dapat melihat betapa cerianya wajah Ridwan apabila di peluk gadis idaman.Bahagia.Mungkin itu tanda bahagia.Baju?sudah sama, jodoh?mungkin ada.
Beberapa kali nama gadis idamannya di jeritkan, dilaungkan sepuas-puas hatinya.kalau tiada aral melintang, jodoh mu pasti akan di ketemukan.Mungkin.Harapan tinggal harapan, api harapan tetap terus membara.
Saya?kalau tanya saya.Saya senyum sahaja.Orang kata senyum itu bahagia, gembira.Tapi kadang kala senyum itu boleh jadi topeng sahaja.”I fake a smile so she won’t see”, kata-kata taylor swift yang aku gubah sedikit.Sedih?tidak ini bukan sedih.Khabarnya, dia gembira kini.Itu sudah cukup bagi saya.Mencintaimu adalah bahagia untukku.
Maybe I should forget about telling her how I felt.Maybe I should runaway from all of this.Run?How can I?Running is harder when you kept falling every time.While in the car, both of us thought of a same thing.
Why such beauty was created into this world and sadly they are not ours?Is this a test?Or simple there will be another plan for us in the end?Maybe, something are never meant to be together.Somebody told me, don’t put your hopes to high, or in the end, it wouldonly hurt you even more than it was suppose to.
Kepada yang berjaya menakluki hati, tolonglah jaga,cinta,hargai dia.because if you don’t , there are lot of others yang care.Please don’t make her cry again, I heard it once, I don’t wished to hear it again.
Think is time, to let it go, again.
Sometimes I wished I never knew you.
Sometimes I wished you still kept your distance from me.
Sometimes i wished you just someone I used to know.
Sometimes I wished I could have told you.
Told you, that I hate you.
Hate you because
I love you.
:deadrose:
